How I became Agnostic


I really do not talk about this period of my life much.

Clinically, I might have been diagnosed as mildly depressed. So, let us begin that journey gently and slowly.

I was studying math at my university, and I burned out. I burned out on school, work, work, and more work. I had three jobs and University classes. And my classes were Mathematics.

I burned out.

As I burned out, I had a spiritual break down. I began drinking, heavily. To me, God no longer existed.

Don’t misunderstand, I did not become an atheist. I still “knew” that I had had spiritual encounters in my life. I just no longer had any idea what those encounters meant in the practical world I had encountered in my studies.

I was no longer comfortable with “god,” much less the real “God.”

I became comfortable with the idea that I had “grown up.” I had learned that in the modern world, “god” was not a part of reality. And I felt I was supposed to ‘mature,’ and ‘grow up.’

Yes, Liberalism does this to many people. Some recover. Others never recover.

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